When you are in a relationship, it has a lot to do with how you grow up. A relationship whether it is a good one, a bad one, it shapes who you are. It makes you understand emotion a lot better. Believe it or not. I've had my share of bad relationships. They have all been bad in one way or another. I guess you can say that I haven't found my prince charming yet. However, when I do, I will be ready. I will be prepared because I have been through and emotional roller coaster of relationships. I am not saying they were horrible or something because at times they were amzing but life isn't perfect. Nobody is perfect.
Relationships aren't like how you see on tv. Perfect. Romantic. Easy. It's a lot harder than it looks. Trust me. When you first get into a relationship it could be all of that but once you get more comfortable with eachother and start to analyze everyhing about the person you are with, you become more aware of the person they really are. And then all of a sudden the fantasy part of it all goes away and reality appears. I've been hurt som many times in a relationship, more than I can count. In many ways. emotionally, physically, mentally. It's not fun. I can't explain how this all happened but it just does. I am not saying I am so innocent you know I have broken a few hearts myself.
Were teenagers. So young. We make a lot of mistakes but we learn from them aswell. Relationships shape our lives. We have all the bad relationships to thank for what we have learned about love. And life. It sucks at first but down the road we realize how much it actually helped us. Band-aids don't cover up all wounds. Trust is a huge factor in any relationship. You will get no where if you don't truest. And I think that is why many teenagers have a probelm with sharing all this and opening up with their parents because they find it very difficult to trust that they will understand. I honestly don't tell my parents anyhting either. You know they always tell me that I can talk to them about anyhing, well my mom does because my dad doesn't even let me date. However, I can barley share my feelings with the person I am with so I son't even understand how they expect me to talk to them about this shit.
I have said that I have a problem with opening up about how I feel and it is because I am so closed off and guarded. Not only because I have been hurt before but because I hate feeling the pain of it all. I know it probably sounds weird when I say that I hate to feel emotion. It's true though. I do. That has been the reason for past breakup's because I can't share my heart with anyone else. Not even family. I sound mean but I am not. I can be the nicest person ever but it's never easy. Were teenagers and we play games. We have our fun and move on. It's not right but everyone does it. People have steady relationships and they may be in love but people are different. You can't exactly tell you parents or teachers about all of this. No one would understand but friends. Older people were their once. Adults had our lives but they never fully lived them the way we do.
I am sure 20 years from now when I am married and have my career, with 3 kids I will look back on all of this and laugh at myself. I can't even imagine my kids being the kind of kids we all are now. No one will ever fully get how to be in a perfect relationship. There is no such thing. But maybe some day people will get out of their bad habbits, stop playing games, stop cheating, and just love eachother. I myslef have never been in love before and I really don't plan on it for a very, very, very long time. No more love triangles or wondering feelings because that only makes things worse. Just love. Nothing less. Nothing more. Sounds easier than it is but if you try hard enough you just might get there. No one older than the age of 25 will ever really understand the realtionships or hook ups or the friends with benifits that we have. It's only up to us to make it all a fairytale and find our happy endings.
Relationships aren't like how you see on tv. Perfect. Romantic. Easy. It's a lot harder than it looks. Trust me. When you first get into a relationship it could be all of that but once you get more comfortable with eachother and start to analyze everyhing about the person you are with, you become more aware of the person they really are. And then all of a sudden the fantasy part of it all goes away and reality appears. I've been hurt som many times in a relationship, more than I can count. In many ways. emotionally, physically, mentally. It's not fun. I can't explain how this all happened but it just does. I am not saying I am so innocent you know I have broken a few hearts myself.
Were teenagers. So young. We make a lot of mistakes but we learn from them aswell. Relationships shape our lives. We have all the bad relationships to thank for what we have learned about love. And life. It sucks at first but down the road we realize how much it actually helped us. Band-aids don't cover up all wounds. Trust is a huge factor in any relationship. You will get no where if you don't truest. And I think that is why many teenagers have a probelm with sharing all this and opening up with their parents because they find it very difficult to trust that they will understand. I honestly don't tell my parents anyhting either. You know they always tell me that I can talk to them about anyhing, well my mom does because my dad doesn't even let me date. However, I can barley share my feelings with the person I am with so I son't even understand how they expect me to talk to them about this shit.
I have said that I have a problem with opening up about how I feel and it is because I am so closed off and guarded. Not only because I have been hurt before but because I hate feeling the pain of it all. I know it probably sounds weird when I say that I hate to feel emotion. It's true though. I do. That has been the reason for past breakup's because I can't share my heart with anyone else. Not even family. I sound mean but I am not. I can be the nicest person ever but it's never easy. Were teenagers and we play games. We have our fun and move on. It's not right but everyone does it. People have steady relationships and they may be in love but people are different. You can't exactly tell you parents or teachers about all of this. No one would understand but friends. Older people were their once. Adults had our lives but they never fully lived them the way we do.
I am sure 20 years from now when I am married and have my career, with 3 kids I will look back on all of this and laugh at myself. I can't even imagine my kids being the kind of kids we all are now. No one will ever fully get how to be in a perfect relationship. There is no such thing. But maybe some day people will get out of their bad habbits, stop playing games, stop cheating, and just love eachother. I myslef have never been in love before and I really don't plan on it for a very, very, very long time. No more love triangles or wondering feelings because that only makes things worse. Just love. Nothing less. Nothing more. Sounds easier than it is but if you try hard enough you just might get there. No one older than the age of 25 will ever really understand the realtionships or hook ups or the friends with benifits that we have. It's only up to us to make it all a fairytale and find our happy endings.
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